tomorrow starts the challenge!!!!!







bring it on bitches

Bah! after much frustration and mean comments, the wonderful boy helped me upload this damn picture. apparently in the new interface uploading pictures doesn't always work. So, if you switch, you can probably upload one =)

Anywho, this is what my workout looked like today.

They don't post them on weekends so I went to a previous one. It caught my eye because it discussed emotional eating. But the workout is set up a little differently than the others. it is 24 rounds of 20/10 rather than 12 rounds of 50/10. two sets of the exercise, two sets of skipping rope, two sets of exercise, etc. I LOVED it. it was an awesome workout. I definitely pushed myself today, which I needed after yesterdays food fuck ups.
I am definitely an emotional eater. While working at Uinta I would eat my stress. Especially if it was an eventful (read: horrible) shift. At night I would raid the fridge and eat anything and everything. Morning shifts I would come home and eat even if i wasn't hungry. I'm learning to control that now. It helps that I am no longer working in such a high stress job, but when I get stressed I usually just take a nap.

In awesome news, BodyRock is doing another 30 day challenge starting April 30th! Join me!
www.bodyrock.tv

Whoops, I have ten minutes to shower and get dressed before my brother gets here. He's helping me move heavy shit today.

the countdown begins

workout finished
breakfast ate
stretching in progress
blogging commenced

yesterday was a fuck it day. i didn't workout. I didn't even really move all that much. i was feeling adventurous and travelled out of my routine for dinner and made ravioli. I love ravioli. but last night it made me feel fucking terrible. I didn't dress it up with my usual alfredo sauce, rather i used spinach (gotta eat it every day), olive oil, garlic and basil, and asiago cheese. BLAH!
I also visited P and R. i brought them cuppycakes, an invitation to graduation, and an outfit for baby R. their family is really really fucked up. they have been forbidden to see their grandchild, baby R, by their son-in-law. oh but wait, today they are allowed to see him?

fucked. up.

tuesday was great! temp was in the high 70s, even hitting low 80s. I worked four hours on my garden that i'm not even going to be here for (dumb? yes). got a kick ass sunburn. Its still painful. went to the banquet - ugh. then went to yoga with my momma. my back was killing after four hours of bending and digging, yoga was great for it =)
so about this banquet. it was the senior banquet for the sw program. it was nice, i suppose. at a restaurant i don't love, but you do what you gotta do. the problem with my program is that everyone has their little social circles, and i don't fit into a single one. i can usually hold conversation with everyone in the program, but i'm not typically invited to a table. i don't mind not being part of the circles, but it sure makes it awkward in social gatherings.

i've been working on packing.....
just not very hard


seven more days til boy comes home
nine more days til graduation
ten more days til moving day (shit. shit. shit.)

i think this moving far away thing is making momma sad. she's invited me over for dinner multiple times. had multiple long phone conversations (typically about the same thing as the last one). i'll be sad to leave my family, but i'm so. damn. excited. for this change.
now i'm kinda sad and shit....


anyway, i get to watch baby R today for an hour or so. if its not raining like it says its going to we'll go play in the park. and swing! and i worked out this morning. i need to remember how awesome i feel after i workout and how much better i eat when i start the day out right.

this post is all over the place. whatthehell.
and sorry about all the swearing. whoops..

one day i'll own a shop

so i looooooovvvve to make cupcakes. or as i like to call them, cuppycakes. I've been invited to T's bbq and she asked me to make a dessert. so, why not expand my knowledge and make cuppycakes?

don't they look delicious? chocolate cake, butterscotch chips, and buttershots liquor in the frosting. oh man, they're good. thought I'd share.

recipe could be provided upon request =)

dos mas semanas

til i leave for tejas!

better get this cleaning show on the road.

I split yesterday's workout into two days. it was another rep challenge that I thought I'd have time for. Turns out, I didn't have much time at all. I did the first three exercises yesterday with two ab bonuses. I did the remaining four exercises today with the ab bonus twice through. I hope I feel that tomorrow.
I haven't really been feeling the workouts like I expected. I know I'm pushing it while I exercise because I'm sweating and out of breath during and after. But I suppose its not hard enough.

I felt pretty good about what I ingested yesterday (mostly). I had a kindbar for breakfast. It kept me surprisingly full. For lunch mom and I went to the Cheesecake Factory. First of all, its a lot nicer than I thought it would be. I was expecting totally trashy because of their reputation of worst food ever.

I could have ordered this...

But I didn't. I had beet, goat cheese and arugula salad.

Looks much better right? Also, it was tasty.

My downfall yesterday was liquor. Two drinks at luch, three at home.

Today is a bbq at T's house. I'm going to make butterscotch cuppycakes. Butterscotch chips in the chocolate batter, buttershots in the frosting. Yes please. 

Oh yeah, day five without smoking and it rocks. I still get pangs of longing when I see it or smell it, but I haven't given in! (mostly cause they're so expensive....)

B is coming over to craft after shower and cuppycakes. better get a move on!

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my life kinda rocks right now

another hole in my life

done with my job
done with smoking
done (more or less) with dcfs

to celebrate all this i got my nose pierced! wahoo! i <3 it.

its super duper cute. i can't wait til its healed and i can change the ring.

worked out this morning. looked online and saw 1000 rep challenge and i said fuck no! so instead i did an older workout. wasn't as hard, but the ab bonus made me sweat. I wanted to do an experiment during my workout today. i listened to a different type of music for today's workout than i normally do. typically i listen to hip hop while i workout. today i switched it up and listened to hard rock music. disturbed, breaking benjamin, those kinds of bands.
conclusion?
hip-hop makes me pay attention to speed, hard rock makes me pay attention to form and strength.

and my brain has shut off due to pain. fingers don't work without a brain....

last days and first days

Today is my last day of work. I'm mildly sad. Let's be real though. If they cry, I'll probably cry too.

Today is also my first day of no smoking. I timed it out perfectly (well, I tried to). I always smoked one on my way to work. That was it, not really any other time. Well, I had just enough to last me until my last day of work. Turns out I miscounted. So today I'll just have to see how I do without it. But it never really did anything for me, just ended up being habit by the end.
Now that I don't have work hopefully I won't need smoking.

But all this talking about it is making me want one. Moving on.

This was my workout today. I failed for the last three days. No workouts for me so this one kicked my ass. I'm discovering that even a short break from these will make you regret it. I'm learning from Lisa-Marie to not make any excuses, so I'm not going to even list why I didn't workout. I just didn't.
(is it workout or work out???)
Anywho. I was sweating, like crazy. Good thing it is raining outside for me to cool off.
Oh, and I'm up to seven dollas.

And this will be my breakfast as soon as I'm done writing this. Yumm.

I made delicious cuppycakes for my girls. 3 dozen of them to be exact. Today's workout probably only burned off half of the batter and frosting I ate. eep.

Time for that delicious breakfast =)

guess who's back?

back again.
hailey's back.
and is lame.....

anywho. I fell off the bandwagon for a while there. an update shall we?

boy moved. to texas. no worries, we're still together (more on this later).
put in my two weeks. only four (count'em. 4) more shift. thank the gods.
school is almost done, and i suck at staying caught up on paper. eep...
I went back to body rocking. and thats what I'm here to talk about.

I'm on day five. I've been doing the workouts every morning. even the ab bonuses occasionally. I saw a motivation system on pinterest that involves putting a dollar away every time you work out. I thought, great! boy and I can put this money away, get in shape, and travel somewhere. Its an awesome motivation.
Yesterday I struggled. There was no video posted, and it was my day off. so my brain said fuck it. I started drinking at 11, but was able to limit it to four all day. I ate way more than I should have, and had way more treats than I should have. Dad came up for the gallery walk and we met up with T. Gallery walk offers cookies and chocolate covered strawberries, how does one resist?
so I was feeling pretty shitty about myself towards the end of the day. But I feel like I've changed my mindset a little bit. Normally I would have said, "well you fucked up already so you can't do it." But today I got back on. Hit the workout hard (with some modifications of course) and plan to monitor my food today. Yogurt and granola with strawberries for breakfast sounds delightful. Well, not as good as a bagel, but! healthier.
Its kinda funny. I feel myself getting a little stronger every day. and I've only been doing this for five days. I don't know if its all in my head or if its actually happening. But whatever the case I like it. I have more energy and am more inclined to eat better if I work out in the morning.
Maybe I can get boy to body rock with me (yeah right).

So about this whole Texas thing.

see that little green star? Thats where we'll be living. looks hot. It wasn't my first choice, but, we didn't have a choice. boy got offered a job there doing pest control again. it has potential to be a long term thing (long as in a year or two). So far they're doing really well. He left on april 3. He comes back for my graduation (May 5th baby!!) and the doggy and I will drive back down with him after.
i.
am.
STOKED.

I'm not big on the texas thing, but I am big on the getting out of Logan thing.
There is one catch.
I was awarded a grant for school this year by the state. One stipulation of the grant is that I have to work for the state (DCFS) for a year after graduation to repay the grant. I have to actively search and apply for jobs within 90 mile of my homebase for 90 days after graduation. Sounds great right? It would be if I wanted to stay in Utah. But, as it turns out I don't. So its a dilemma.
My solution: wait in Texas. If I get a job, I'll come back. If I don't, I'll stay.

so please
pleeease
pleeeeaaaasssee

cross your fingers that I don't get a job.

As fun as this has all been, I have so much shit that must be done in such a small amount of time...