Strength

How hard are these last three days?

The hardest.

Ever.

Its taking a lot for me to stay on protocol today. With the combination of it being Friday {of a long weekend}, and extra check at work, I'm really craving the booze. And cheese. And carbs. In fact, my cravings are so strong that I almost talked myself into only doing 19 days of P2. 

Surprisingly, J was the one who told me I should stay on P2 and finish it out. J! He didn't want me to go on the diet in the first place. And now he wants me to stick it out? Maybe he's realizing how hot his girlfriend is when she loses some weight ;)

So, I'll suck it up. I have fish thawing. Veggies that need to be eaten. I don't even have anything to drink, so that helps. And fish and cheese don't mesh well. 

Saturday and Sunday. Then sweet cheese on Monday. Sunday will be a test, we're going to the folks for a barbeque. I offered to bring coleslaw, so I could at least know the amount of fat going in, haha.

.4 loss this morning. Better than 0.

=) 

Zip, Zilch, Nada

No movement on the scale this morning. Slightly disappointing. 

Although no loss is better than any gain.

I bought "Smooth Move" tea because, well, I don't get much fibre in my diet. I think that helped a lot yesterday. Perhaps it should be an every night beverage.

{Sorry for that tmi}

I calculated incorrectly yesterday, only four more days on P2. 

In other news, my new cereal is delicious! Cinnamon Pecan Special K. Oh so tasty.

Mas!

1.1 pound loss today. So much better than the .2 I'd been seeing the past two days.

Which brings the total weight loss up to 10.2 pounds.

Five (and a half) more days on P2. 

Then cheese. And liquor. Its ridiculous how much I've missed drinking...

A New Ten

Day 13

Weight: 159.6

Finally out of the 160s! Been a while since I've seen that number.

Eight days left on P2. I can see the light! I'm not losing as much as I had hoped to. But any loss is progress, and I'm accepting that a little more than I was earlier this week. The second week is notorious for being a slump, I'm hoping things pick back up next week. 

Other than my weight dropping, I'm noticing a few other changes about my body that I'm liking.

my double chin is gone {!}

my belt has gone down one hole, I can even tighten it to the next one smaller

my pants are definitely looser, even out of the dryer

my shirts are hanging slightly looser and flatter

i am gaining my flexibility back 

{that may or may not all be in my head}

my ribs and hip bones are more noticeable 

I still miss food, of course. Nothing will ever replace the glory that is cheese. But I'm learning some new recipes that aren't too bad. Tonight's dinner was tuna "cakes." They fell apart the second I took them out of the tin, but they tasted good nonetheless. I tried some butternut squash soup today for lunch {that I totally love, just not on protocol}. Keeping my fingers crossed that it didn't mess me up too badly.

I'm pondering the idea of doing a second round. After a break of course. It would be nice to get down to my high school size again. I keep pictures around just to remind myself. It serves as motivation.

On another note {I can't believe I'm about to say this} I can't wait to start working out again. It was a nice routine that I got into. I'm not the most active girl, but this sedentary thing isn't going well for me. Its been drilled into me that exercise = weight loss. It'll be nice to work out again and gain some more muscle. It's one thing to be skinny, it's another to be toned.

Say Cheese!

I am extremely proud to say, that I just handled a two pound block of cheese and didn't eat a 

single.

bite.

Now that's willpower baby. 

{cheese = weakness}

It is now Round 1, Phase 2, Day 10

Weight: 161.4

Total loss: -6.2 lbs

My loss was disappointing this morning. Only .2 pounds. I did try a meat substitute last night for dinner, so perhaps that was the culprit. I also didn't drink as much water as I am known to. But this made me so upset. I was a horror this morning. To work so hard and to have such little success was devastating. It's amazing how much it hurt to only see the scale creep down a measly .2 pounds. Shouldn't I be happy? Shouldn't I have been proud? I was anything but.

But I suppose the only thing to do is keep on truckin. I can't give up now. I've come so far already. I have eleven days left on phase two. Then two days of diet and no drops. Then phase three. 

Just in time for my birthday =)

Ups and Downs

After losing so much, its a big hit to the ego when you gain. Even if it's only

half a pound.

It still hurts.

Last week I lost a total of 5 pounds. Pretty neat. 

Mother's Day was Sunday. Fams went to MacCool's. I did so good (so I thought). I ordered a beet salad, left the walnuts out, six cups of water, denied candy offered, and sucked down watermelon for dinner.

I guess you can overdo it on something as simple as watermelon.

So today I made certain I was right on target. Salads for lunch and dinner. Fruit "soup" for dessert. 

Add chopped strawberries and pineapples and one packet of stevia to a food processor. Add just enough water to make the fruit move. Blend until desired consistency.

I'm going to freeze it overnight and have it as a sort of sorbet tomorrow night.

I've noticed that I'm not eating as much as I should be. Sometimes I don't even reach the 500 calorie limit. I still feel some hunger pangs at times, but they subside quickly. 

Here's to hoping tomorrow morning is a better day.

Minus Two

Remember how I said I wished next report would have been a better loss?

Two.

Pound.

Loss.

Overnight.

Yeah, that's cool.

Cheese and bread can wait if this is going to continue =)

Four Days Down

So it's been four days on the Hcg diet. I've lost 1.8 pounds. Not as much as I expected, but it is that time of the month. Loss won't be as high for that week. Hopefully next week will show better results.

Some things I've noticed:

~my "smaller" button on my belt isn't as painful~

~I'm feeling full sooner~

~I'm drinking more water~

Unfortunately I'm also more tired and feel hungry sometimes. I also learned working out is not recommended. I don't want to break my habit I'm trying to create by sleeping in and forgoing exercise, so I'm slowing it down. Only 20 minutes of walking. 

And my cravings for {bad} food are insane.

Tonight's dinner was spectacular. I could have eaten the whole pan.

shrimp. frozen spinach. onion. celery. veggie broth. garlic. old bay.

.yum.

I hope next time there will be a bigger loss to report.

Hcg and an Update

Some things have happened since December.

.j lost his job.

.we lived with my parents.

.we both got jobs. 

.we had to put our harley to sleep.

.we moved to layton.

Neat huh?

But I've also started a new life change. I decided to start the Hcg diet. I'm tired of not loving my body. I'm tired of not being comfortable naked. I'm also impatient and don't want to do the safest diet and exercise way. So, I'm helping myself out. Giving myself a jump-start, so to say. I had a few friends do the diet, with great results. If they can, I can too.

It works by limiting calories to 500/day. The Hcg takes the fat deposits in your body and uses those for calories. I loaded for three days - eating more than normal while still taking drops. Today starts the diet.

Day One

Weight: 168.7

I'm hungry. Breakfast I had half a cup of cereal and half a cup of milk. They say feeling hungry will go away the longer I'm on the diet. 

I'm feeling the side effects of hunger, shaky, I'm sure I'll feel headachy. This should subside.

Didn't lose any weight over the weekend. 

Work out for today.

Plan on drinking lots of water today.

Hopefully I'll keep this up. And the blog!